Its Friday Already!?!?

Can you believe it's Friday all over again?? The days are just passing by so damned fast! Felt like it was just last week we ushered in the new year and what do you know, before I could even catch my breath it's already the middle of May! Whoah!!

So what are your plans for today? Anything special planned for the weekend? A night out celebrating the end of the work week maybe? Or maybe a nice weekend getaway?

As for me, well as usual, I have absolutely nothing planned! Ahahahahahah. I don't have much of a life these days and no, I'm not going to go into details about why I don't have much of  life. We'll save that story for another day.

I actually like Fridays. Most Fridays my good friend Anita would come by my house and have lunch with me. Sometimes when I feel up to it we would go out to eat but mostly we just eat at my place. It's nice to have company once in a while.

I rather enjoy my Friday lunch dates. It gives me something to look forward to (spoken like a true no life-er). I find figuring out what to cook and trying to get all my cooking done before Anita arrives rather exciting (yes, I know I sound pathetic but just try and humor me alright).

Cooking and entertaining have always been a passion of mine. I remember the dinner parties I used to host when I was living on my own back in my student days in good ol' KL. Most Sunday nights I would gather some of my closest friends and treat them to a hearty home cooked meal (Sarawakian style of course).

Ahh.. those were the days, the joys of being young and care free. Well, enough reminiscing. I need to go dig around in the fridge and figure out what to cook for lunch. It is now 7.20am I have just over four hours to investigate my ingredients and come up with a menu so sayonara!

Have a great Friday folks!

Bookworm!

Good morning (or noon or evening or whatever)! It's 8.08am and I have been up all night downloading kindle e-books from amazon.com. Yes ladies and gentleman.. my latest obsession is downloading e-books.. FREE e-books to be more precise. Yes, I'm cheap but seriously, why waste money unnecessarily when I can just get it for free (LEGALLY) online? I don't know why I never thought to look online before.

I guess it all started when my favorite 2nd hand book store closed down (or moved away, I never did find out what hhappened to it). I became desperate for something to read so I started browsing online for some cheap alternatives. Not being able to find anything locally, I decided to just log on to one of my favorite online shopping site, yes you guessed it, amazon.com.

Just so you know, I have been lusting after a kindle e-book reader for a few years now. Every time I log onto amazon, I never miss the chance to ogle at a kindle and every time i would be praying and hoping that by some miracle the price would be super cheap. No such luck (so far)!

Well, as usual I was ogling at all the different selections of kindles and checking out e-books when I realize there is a kindle app that we can download so we can read kindle e-books on non kindle devices like our computer, ipad, iphone, and also any android device. I was ecstatic! It was safe to say I wasted no time downloading the app on my computer (I can't even afford a kindle so I obviously do not own any android device, iphones or ipads).

The moment I finished downloading the app I got down right to it and begin my quest of downloading as many e-books from amazon as I possibly could. You would be surprised at how many titles are offered FREE on amazon. Yes you read me right, FREE! I was in bookworm heaven.

I have downloaded 80 free e-books so far. I'm greedy so I will be scouring for more. Life is good but what would make it even better? A KINDLE! I hope to be able to finally afford one really soon, in the mean time, if there is any generous soul out there who wants to buy me a Kindle Touch 3G (my kindle of choice), all I can say is, I will love you loooong time!! :P

Lameness Overload!

Yes, you heard me right.. this is indeed lameness overload. Why? Well this blog is starting to sound like a joke! Every time I get excited about being back in blogging action, the excitement fizzles off the moment I click post! Grrrrr! Is it possible for a human being to be as lazy and as unmotivated as I am? I really would like to know... then at least I wouldn't feel so bad about myself. Ahahahaha..

Well, if it is any consolation, a lot of life changing things have been happening in my life since my last entry, but being the lazy ass and kill joy that I am, I'm not going to talk about it right now. Stay tuned for my next update (cross your fingers and hope it would happen soon! hahaha) and I might be motivated enough to share the details. As for now, I'm off to bed (I think)!

p/s: I know! I know! I'm hopeless. But I know you still love me! *wink*

The Lazy Blogger...

Hello folks!

How are you today? I was sitting down in front of the computer after lunch and I was thinking to myself, I've not touched my blog for almost a gazillion years! How is that possible? In March I was so gung-ho about me being back and for you all to stay posted and errmm.. well, bwahahahahahaha I guess that was all just hot air huh?

Seriously though it's like my brain cells are slowly dying of bit by bit.. It's like I can't think anymore.. and inspiration is a real bitch! Where is it when I need it the most? Grrrrrr!

Well I'm going to try and blog as much as I can and keep this blog alive. We can't let this blog die off just like that now can we?? No! I refuse to let that happen! So my promise to all of you is, I will at the very least try and blog once a week.

OK guys, gotta go! You all take care and stay cool and look out for my very next post alright? Muaaaaaahhh!

I'm back!!

OMG! It's already March 2011! It's almost a full year since I last updated my blog. In my last blog I was making such a big hoohaa about not writing for TWO months.. little did I know I was gonna end up taking almost a year to write my next entry. Such is life I guess.. We never know what's gonna happen. Well, now I'm back so be sure to check back regularly to catch my latest posts. Muaaaaahhh! Love you all!

Long Absence...

Wow... I really can't believe two months have passed since I last made an entry. This is absolutely pathetic. What kind of blogger am I if I don't blog religiously? The lazy procrastinating kind I guess.. Hahahaha! And AGAIN, ladies and gentlemen, where DID time go??

It's really funny how in a blink of an eye two WHOLE months have come to pass.. It didn't just pass by quietly but in fact, a whole lot of things have been happening in that two months. These past two months have been pretty crazy for me socially and also emotionally... I'm starting to re-discover guys. Yes people, despite my painful experience with men.. I'm starting to re-discover them.. Ahahahh..I'm starting to get back in the game.

I am still pretty wobbly like a new born foal.. still trying to re-learn the dating game. Contrary to popular belief, it's not woman that is hard to understand.. In fact, it is MEN that is extremely difficult to understand! I'm serious! I have been trying so hard practically all my adult life to understand them.. but to no avail!

Well, I guess the coming months would be pretty interesting. I have lots of men related stories to share.. Of course we'll leave that for the next post.. So just wait for it! Cheers!

February

Ahhh.. February is coming to an end.. A lot of things happened this month.. There was Thaipusam, Chinese New Year... Valentine's Day and yes, my father's 4th anniversary. I really can't believe it have been 4 years since he left us to be with God. I really miss my daddy. It's not hard to see that I'm daddy's girl. I miss you soooooo much daddy!! Hope you are happy where ever you are.. May God bless your soul.

Death.. It never fails to pay each one of us a visit.. It comes in many forms. Be it our own death or those of our loved ones. Of course there's nothing much we could say about it when it's our own, we're dead after all. Dead people can't form opinions. Or maybe they they could but we just can't hear them. Ahahahaha.

Last month I lost my lovely dog Maia... I was dealt a double blow this month when I lost yet another dog. I lost my puppy Xena.. Yes, Xena the daughter of Maia.. Fate could be cruel but I have to be strong. My only consolation is that at least now Maia won't be alone.

Okay, let's move on. The topic of death is depressing and I do not wish to dwell on it for longer than I should. It's the 28th today. Chap Goh Mei! Yes.. the 15th day of the Chinese New Year.. the end of the celebrations. Isn't Malaysia wonderful? It's one celebration after another... Woohoo!

One celebration that was pretty different for me this year was Valentine's Day. I just realized that it's the 1st Valentine I've had in a really long time where I'm single.. Yup.. Single! Alone! I'm not too bothered by it though. I've been pretty blessed to have had somebody to share my Valentines with all these years (and just because I have somebody to share it with doesn't necessarily made it good).

On that note, I think I rather like being single. I have forgotten the freedom and independence that comes from being single. It's pretty liberating. I'm absolutely loving it! My life is starting to fall into place. I'm doing what I want to do whenever I want to do it. Its like a breath of fresh air!

February have been a pretty interesting month for me. Made plenty of new friends from around the world. Caught up with old friends. Pretty amazing experience. I hope that all the coming months promises to be as interesting and as fruitful as it have been. I pray God will bless me and all my undertakings..

Life Goes On

Wow, just the other day I was whining about how fast time flies and that it was already 2010 without me realizing it. Now it's already February! Seriously, is just just me getting old or does time really fly?

I honestly couldn't for the life of me figure out where did time go.. Maybe mourning my dog Maia's passing haven't been much help... I was quite surprised (AGAIN!) to realize that today is already Febuary 1st! My spirits have been extremely low after the tragedy of Maia's death. She really was my very best friend. It was really hard adjusting to life without her. Everyday when I wake up I always half expect her passing to just be a dream and that she would be sleeping right there in her usual spot right under my butt... but the reality is far more cruel, every morning I reach out.. And Maia is not there. In fact, she would never be there. What a way to start my day. It's really heart breaking and I KNOW I should stop torturing myself but I just can't help it. She have been with me for two and a half years.. Old habits die hard.. I know I would still reach out under my butt for her everyday until God knows when...

These days coming home have been really sad too.. With Maia, every time I enter the door, she would be there waiting, jumping up and down joyfully with a goofy grin on her face and tail wagging crazily. She makes me feel like I'm the most important thing in the world. Something which no other human have ever made me feel.. *sigh* Oh Maia.. Mommy miss you sooo much. I hope you're happy up there in your doggie heaven. Go play in all the grass you want and sniff some flowers for me. I love you girl..

Yes, I know exactly what you're thinking. You're thinking that I'm such a big freak. That I'm obsessed with my dog. Well the plain truth is, I AM obsessed with my dog.. but how is that a problem? I never hurt anyone with my obsession. Besides, what is so wrong with loving your pet? If more people love their pet then there wouldn't even be an SPCA. No dogs would be abandoned, neglected or even abused! There wouldn't even be any stray dogs because pet owners would be responsible enough to either spay and neuter their pets or if they do allow their pets to breed then would be responsible enough to keep and take care of the puppies or give them away to good loving homes. So in other words, those irresponsible pet owners, they're the real freaks!

Well, it have been nine days since my Maia died. I'm still in mourning but ultimately I do know that life goes on and that I need to snap out of my sadness. I need to go on with my life. My life have been really messy and I'm very sure my darling Maia wouldn't want me to be sad and upset. She have spent most of her short life licking my tears dry and I bet she wouldn't want to be the cause of more tears and pain. I need to stay strong and start looking for happiness. Memory of Maia would forever live in my heart and also through her two beautiful daughters Xena and Zorra. They have taken over their mother's legacy. They have been with me all through my mourning period, licking my tears dry and making me laugh. In fact, sweet Zorra have now claimed her mother's sleeping spot right under my butt... She may not be Maia but... oh who cares!

The moral of the story is, please cherish what you have because it could be gone in a second. Live, love and be happy. If someday you do end up losing the ones you love, it's okay. At least you have loved to the fullest. No regrets.

R.I.P. my dear Maia.

 

I lost my very best friend today. My dog Maia passed away leaving a gashing hole in my heart. She was my very best friend. She was obedient, loyal, and most of all, she loved me unconditionally. She didn't care if I was fat or thin. Pretty or ugly. Rich or poor. She loved me just the way I am.

I miss her happy face and her soulful eyes. I miss her sitting at my feet while I'm on the computer. I miss her rushing to greet me every time I come home. I miss her sleeping curled on my laps while I watch TV. I miss her sleeping on that exact spot just below my butt every night. Oh.. I miss my Maia so much!

My Maia have helped me through so many of life's obstacles. Just playing with her and watching her gave joy to my heart and lifts my spirits up. When I'm sad and crying she would come lick my tears away.. And now, she is gone. My very best friend in the world is gone.

She was more loyal and true and faithful than most friends and definitely more so that any boyfriends I've ever had. If she was a human male, I would marry her! Yes, that is how much I love my Maia. She might just be a dog to others but to me, she was my very best friend.

Please God take my Maia and bless her and take good care of her. I'm putting her in your care now so please I beg you, take good care of her. I promise she would provide you with as much joy and happiness as she had for me. I love you Maia and you'll always and forever be in my heart. Rest in peace.. *hugs and kisses*

Its 2010 Already?!?

Hey people... How fast time flies.. Can you imagine, it's already 2010!! Where did time go?? It shocked me today to realize that its already the MIDDLE of January. Was I sleeping to not realize that time is zooming past me? Well, that just goes to show that I need to wake up and smell the coffee. Time and tide waits for no one after all. Very cliche no doubt but it sure holds true.

I'm still baffled about what transpired between Christmas and now... Time just zoomed past me and I didn't even realize it. One minute I was celebrating Christmas and the next I'm waking up baffled wondering where time went. Maybe the fact that my New Year's celebration was pretty lukewarm didn't allow it to register in my mind that it's already a brand new year. Guess I've been too spoiled in the past celebrating New Year with a big bang. Oh well, "cest la vie", says the French. That's life.

Well, I'm glad 2009 is over. It have NOT been a good year for me. Right now I'm embracing 2010 with my arms wide open. Time for a change. 2009 was pretty much a wasted year. I wasted myself, my time, my emotions, my resources, my everything! Yes I know I shouldn't have any regrets and should take responsibility for my own actions and trust me I do but I just can't help feeling disappointed. I've invested so much of myself and it all came down to absolutely nothing.

It's time to move on! I have this niggling feeling that 2010 would be a wonderful year for me. It's the year of the Chubs! Wooohooo! So people, wish me luck and pray that I find success. This year it's all about me.. And yes my dear friends.... its all about you too.. Ahahahhaa... I'm dedicating this year to improving myself, healing and appreciating what God gave me... Yes, God gave me my life, my friends and most important, God gave me my family.

So, happy 2010 everybody and with the new year, I'm wishing everyone new hopes, new dreams and new happiness. Cheers!

It's Christmas!

Ahhh... It's that time of the year again. Christmas time have always been one of my favorite holidays. No, it's not just because of all the food and presents (although it IS a bonus! ahahaha) but its just the spirit of the season. In fact,I hardly EVER get any Christmas presents but to me, having my health and having my family and loved ones around me beats any present anyone could ever give. Ok, I'm lying. Ahaahahaha... Its nice to have ALL that AND presents too... Let's be honest here.. Christmas feels so much better when you get presents!

Well, I'll be celebrating my Christmas in Miri this year and it would be something new for me. I've never really celebrated Christmas before. Not on a large scale where I have friends coming over for a Christmas visit and all. It have always been a small family affair and since Christmas coincides with my mom's birthday, it have always been all about her. And ever since my dad passed away three years ago, we're never really celebrated anything. Not even birthdays. I guess it just gets too sad for me and my mom.

I am feeling a little guilty for leaving my mom back home to come to Miri. I'm sure she would get pretty lonely.. I just needed a change of scenery. I HAD to get out to preserve my sanity. 2009 have been a pretty crazy year for me. Too many things have happened and it all affected me deeply. I need a change. I need some breathing room and since my financial situation didn't allow me to embark upon some grand travel plan, Miri was the obvious option. It's far enough and I have relatives to crash with. Whatever works right?

What are YOUR plans for Christmas? Mine's pretty simple. My cousins holds an open house every year for their friends and relatives and well wishers.. so I guess I'll be doing what THEY're doing. We've been preparing for it since last week. Everyday involves cookie making and cake baking. I'm trying my level best to avoid the house cleaning because I absolutely HATE to clean.. the cooking and baking I don't mind.. Afterall, who's going to lick the whisks? Ahahahahaha.

It's safe to say that preparations are coming along just fine and it would be Christmas really really soon. I'm taking this to wish all of you a happy happy Christmas that's filled with joy and love and all things good. May you get all that you wish for and don't forget, it's the season to give.. So go right ahead and give your loved ones a whole lot of loving... It's the season to love afterall.. Merry Christmas!

MAS Wings Sux!

I recently flew to Miri and was unfortunate enough to book myself on a MAS Wings Fokker aircraft. I personally have no problems with the aircraft per se, but it does get rather uncomfortable for a big girl like myself.

To begin with, I almost missed my flight because the damn 'Mr. X' told me he was coming to my house to return my stuff (as you can see, I'm still working really hard to get my stuff back). Surprise surprise! Mr. X never showed up. When I called him up, he said he would meet me at the airport.. I feel so dumb believing him! Because, yup, you guessed it! He NEVER showed! Aaaarrggghhhh!!! He had the balls to keep telling me to give him a few more minutes and that he's already close to the airport... He said that EVERYTIME I called him up to asked him if he was coming. I mean, if he wasn't going to show up at all then WHY WHY WHY play me like a fool like that?

Anyways, because I kept waiting for the damn Mr.X like the dumbass that I was, they had to announce my name asking for my immediate boarding. It was pretty embarrassing! To make things worse, I really needed to go to the toilet so I just went. I would not be able to make it till after take off if I didn't go right away! Once I was done, I had to practically run like a mad woman to board my flight and the fact that they were repeatedly announcing my name over the PA system was making me cringe in embarrassment!

Since the damn plane was a Fokker, boarding takes place OUTSIDE the airport terminal on the airfield itself. As I was running towards the plane, I could see the looks on the pilots' and air hostesses' face. It was a mixture of annoyance and I don't know.. call me paranoid but I think they were sharing a private laugh at my expense. I guess the sight of a chubby girl running all out of breath towards a plane struck them as funny. Well whatever! I was a paying passenger and I deserve equal respect as anybody else.

Well, why I hate the Fokker? It's because it's not exactly chubby friendly! The isles are narrow, seats are slightly smaller than a wider bodied aircraft and horror of horrors! The seat belt does not fit! Yes my dear friends.. I COULD NOT buckle my seat belt. Of course, being a seasoned traveller I didn't let this bother me even if I was dying of humiliation inside because some fellow passengers were already looking at me and im sure were already passing nasty judgements. I just calmly stopped a passing air hostess and asked her nicely for an extension. She graciously told me not to worry and gave one to me right? WRONG! Well.. she did eventually give it to me but not before sighing like I'm asking her to climb Mount Everest. Oh, that and frowning like I just asked her to strip for me. Hell lady! It's your JOB! Get on with the program already!

I really don't understand. Was it prejudice I experienced? Was it because I was fat? Or was it just because these airline workers are just mean people? I mean, isn't it their job to take care of passengers? Yes I was late but does that give them the right to be rude? I think it's much much much easier to smile than to frown. It takes more effort to frown so why bother?

I understand the job of a cabin crew could get really exhausting but try and be professional. All that needs to be done is just BE NICE. Throw away whatever prejudice you have inside of you. We're all equals here. *sigh*

I Love Having Fun: Rainforest World Music Festival

 

I guess this could be considered the 3rd leg of the adventure my cousin Joanna and I embarked upon.. It all started from The Perhentians then the Full Moon Party in Thailand and this is a finale of sorts of our so called great adventure!

The Rainforest World Music Festival is an annual 3-day music festival held in my home town of Kuching, Sarawak. The festival (we call it RainFest) features daytime music workshops, cultural displays, food stalls and of course the main stage evening concerts! RainFest features performers from all over the world playing from traditional music, to world fusion and contemporary world music. It's not your average rock concert for sure!

Set in the grounds of the Sarawak Cultural Village against the backdrop of Mount Santubong, the location couldn't be more perfect. Afterall, what is RainFest without the rainforest right?  Being one of the largest music festival in Malaysia, RainFest attracts audience from around the world (eye candy galore!!). I don't know the exact number of people who attended the event and I'm too lazy to Google it up (oh no, my true colors are starting to shine through! Ahahah), but by my estimation there could easily be about 30,000 people there. It was awesome!

Everyone comes with only one goal in mind, to have fun fun fun! I know I certainly did. I made new friends, danced, ate, drank and be merry! I'm telling you about my 2008 RainFest escapade instead of the more recent 2009 one because I didn't have too good a time this year. Maybe the performers wasn't too interesting or it could just be the company I had that didn't live up to my expectation. I think it was the company. Ahahahahaha. The company you keep is fundamental to the kind of fun you have and I was lucky to have and to have made wonderful acquaintances. People who knows how to enjoy life and live it to the fullest... Just like me! Okay okay.. I'm blowing my won horn a little.. but hey, if I don't blow my own horn, who's going to do it for me? Right? Hehehehehe.

Anyways, RainFest 2008 was a blast! And for the 1st time it actually RAINED but that didn't stop anyone from enjoying themselves. In fact, playing in the rain and mud added to the fun. Seriously! It kind of make me feel like a happy pig rolling around in the mud. Okay I didn't exactly ROLLED around in the mud but heck I DID get all muddy... It was all good fun!

All in all, RainFest was a blast. I enjoyed it immensely and even if I attended the event every year it is still exciting. The people, the music, the spirit, I really can't explain the feeling. You have to experience it for yourself. So yes, RainFest 2010, here we come!!!

I Love Having Fun: Thailand

I promised a post about my trip to Thailand. Well here it is..

My cousin Joanna and I left the Perhentians with a heavy heart and boarded our plane to Koh Samui, Thailand. Koh Samui is the third largest island in Thailand after Phuket and Koh Chang. It have been getting mixed reviews from travelers.. The hardcore nature lovers think the island is being ravaged by development and I'll have to agree. It's a beautiful island but it really is starting to get too crowded. I came to Koh Samui for the 1st time in 2004 and the difference between then and now is staggering! It's starting to get too commercial and touristy on the verge of tackiness. Why do you think I could never be bothered to visit Phuket or Pattaya? These places have already been ravaged by development and have lost its rustic natural island paradise feel. It really is sad.

Any how, Koh Samui have not deteriorated as much so I'm still loving the place. Lovely beaches n coastline to enjoy during the day and plenty to do during the night. The night life here is wonderful! Every night is a party... And I sure do love to party!

Well, our main reason for coming to Thailand was for the ever famous Full Moon Party. You guessed it, it's held EVERY full moon. Yup, Full Moon Parties are held every month on Haad Rin Beach on the neighbouring island of Koh Pha Ngan. An average of 10,000 people from all over the world would converge on this beach every full moon to party their heads off! The party typically starts at about 4pm and ends at about 9am the next day. Now THAT is what we call hardcore partying! It's crazy!

Getting drunk during Full Moon is relatively cheap and easy. They sell alcohols by the bucket (literally) and it cost RM16 per bucket. Of course the prices increases as the night progresses and people gets progressively drunk but  it's still all good! Where else could you get a bucket of Smirnoff for under RM30? So what do I say? I say hell yeah!! Bring on the buckets!!

I must have had like a gazillion buckets that night. I lost count after my fifth. Met a lot of people whom I was too drunk to remember but it was still fun none the less. Hahahaha. At least as drunk as I was, I didn't get caught in any compromising situation unlike someone... *laughing manically* So yes people, I had crazy fun in Thailand and I hope to do it again sometime soon. Cheers!

p/s: You can check some videos of full moon parties on you tube.. Here's the one I attended... I wish I know how to upload videos directly to my blog but since I'm still a blogging newbie and until I figure out how to do it, this link would just have to do. Enjoy! FULL MOON PARTY, June 2008

Guy Trouble!

 Aaaahhhh boys! Boys boys boys! I love boys as much as any other girls. In fact, I have this problem of compulsively loving too much. Maybe that is what ultimately leads to my downfall relationship wise? *sigh* Oh I don't know.. You certainly can't accuse me of not giving it my all though.. That's for sure.

Anyways, I'm in the middle of some serious guy related crisis right now. I recently broke up with this guy (let's just call him X) I've been dating for the past year and a half. Breaking up sucks but hey, if it's not working out there's nothing much I can do right? X was a compulsive liar, cheater and user (gee, looks like I wasn't the only one in the relationship that's compulsive.. haha!). I just HAD to opt out to preserve my sanity, dignity and self esteem.

Now that I've broken up, the drama must be over right? If that was what I thought when I broke up with him, boy oh boy was I wrong! In fact, now that we're broken up, the drama is HEATING up! Sheeeessshhh... Why does this make me feel like I'm stuck in some kind of cheap daytime soap opera? Somebody please shoot me!

Okay, what is the problem you ask? Well, let's start with my stuff.. I've been trying to get back all my stuff that is currently in his possession. To no avail! Why the hell is he still keeping my stuff? Give it back mister!! He even still have my house keys which is very worrisome. I've been asking him in the nicest possible way to return all my property but it's just falling on deaf ears. It is so frustrating! And that's just my stuff.. What about the money that he owed? And not to mention my CAR?? I've been rideless for the past TWO months because X just had to go and crash it. Sure, he said he would pay to get it fixed.. Well, I'm STILL WAITING! The car is still in the workshop, sitting there waiting to be taken home... It have been ready for the past month and a half! But why the hell is it still there? It's because wonderful X never came up with the money to pay for it! I personally DO NOT have that kind of money. I don't have a special tree in my backyard that grows money. That explains why I'm always such a careful and responsible driver! I can't afford to crash my car.

So, what do I do now? How do I get myself out of this sticky situation? I wish I could just say f*ck it and forget everything but as much as I want to, I can't! It's my stuff! My money! My car! These stuff didn't just fall from the sky. I worked hard to get it. So yes, I WANT IT BACK! Aaaaarrrrggggghhhhhhh!!

I Love Having Fun: The Perhentian Islands

Yes that is absolutely true. I LOVE to have fun. I NEVER let my size stop me from ever having fun. So, what IS my idea of fun? It honestly depends on my mood! Yes I'll have to admit that i could be very fickle. What I consider fun now I might consider boring next week. That's just the kind of person I am. I can't help it. Maybe I've some undiagnosed ADD/ADHD. I don't know. Think what you like. Hahahaha.

Traveling have always been a big passion of mine and my absolute favorite place to go is the beach. I'm a beach bum and a water baby at heart! I just really love the sun, sea, sand and surf..

 

 

Not too long ago, my cousin Joanna and I decided to give ourselves a treat and took a trip to the Perhentian Islands off the coast of Terengganu. It was pure heaven! Imagine crystal clear waters and beautiful white sandy beaches.... *sigh* Bliss!

The Perhentians consists of two islands, Pulau Perhentian Besar and Pulau Perhentian Kecil. Our choice was Pulau Perhentian Kecil which coincidentally is famous for being a backpacker's paradise. You get backpackers from all over the globe here. That scored MAJOR plus points from us. Hey, a girl needs some SERIOUS eye candy when she's on vacation after all!

Life on the island was blissfully simple.. Days were spent vegetating on the beach, swimming, snorkeling, watching people and making new friends... And in the night time, after dinner, everyone would hang out at the beach bars along the shoreline..  drinking, talking and generally being merry! Everything was so uncomplicated. It kind of make me wish that everyday is a holiday.. *sigh*

Initially we just thought of being in the Perhentians for about 3 days but I guess the island had different plans for us! We ended up staying for a week! The only reason we left was because we had to catch our flight to Thailand to catch the ever famous Full Moon Party.. and that, my dear friend is another story... So watch out for my next post!

Cheers!

What Next?

Yes, what next? Now that I've got my blog up and running, what next? What is it that I've got to say that might interest anyone? Honestly, I don't know. All I know is, I'm here to share my mind, my views, my opinions, my feelings e.t.c..

It's not easy being chubby in a world that idolizes all things superficial. Discrimination is everywhere! Hell, I can't even go into a clothing store and buy clothes that I like. Nothing fits! What's that all about? Only skinny girls get to wear clothes and big girls like us should walk around naked? It's really silly. Why can't retailers carry plus sizes? Will they die if they carry beyond a size L?

And please oh puh-leeeeeze do NOT get me started about the sizing in this country... Even the XL is tiny! What's up with that? I have a friend who wears a size L here in Malaysia who went over to the US and was shocked to find out that she fits into a size S! Can you imagine? It really is sad. I would love to be able to walk into a store and pick out whatever I wanted just like any other girls.

Has anyone noticed the total lack of plus size stores in Malaysia? I mean, where are we supposed to go buy clothes? Not everyone could afford to travel overseas to shop. The few plus size stores that DO exist here mostly caters to the OLDER demographic.. Are they trying to tell us that just because we're plus sized we should dress like our grandmothers?? Hell, even MY grandmother wears jeans.

I am proud to say that I'm one big gal who does NOT conform to how society think I should dress.. I wear what I want, whenever I want. I'm lucky in the sense that i occasionally could travel out of Malaysia and stock up on clothes but it gets really frustrating because I can't exactly travel JUST to go get new clothes now can I? Money doesn't grow on trees after all.

Now let's talk about boys. Don't you just hate it that we big gals have a hard time getting boyfriends just because of our size? It's ridiculous! That's the problem with our society.. They always equate our larger bodies to ugliness. What happened to our personality? Our intelligence? Our good heart? Is that not more important? Besides, who said big girls are ugly? I personally know A LOT of big babes who are drop dead gorgeous with a beautiful personality to boot and because of our extra 'padding' we feel DAMN GOOD to hold too! Not to mention we would also age more gracefully than our smaller counterparts! Our extra fat makes sure of that. Woohoo!

I've had my fair share of guys who would reject me by saying being my size is unhealthy and they do not want to be with unhealthy people. That's bullshit! My health is perfect. I'm NOT saying that all big girls have perfect health, but then again not ALL skinny people have perfect health either. That's just how life is... I personally do not waste my time with shallow superficial guys. If they want to be with skinny girls then go right ahead. It's their own personal taste and choice... Just PLEASE do not put me down!

Well, enough with the depressing stuff. There's no point whining about how unfair the world is and how people should be accepting of us. What WE can do is, accept ourselves for who and what we are.. We NEED to love ourselves first before anyone could learn to love us. So girls... start embracing your chubbiness and love yourselves.. There's nothing sexier than a lady who's comfortable in her own skin.